A Glimpse Of Heaven
I met Ron and Pam in Tamuning during the
catechesis that we were giving in the
six/seven years ago. A fresh young
After walking in their Neocatechumenal
for a few months, they relocated and
to live in Virginia. In their first
of marriage, they lost two babies.
one died 6 months during the pregnancy
the second died a day after she was
Then… another baby, healthy and full
Difficult times are perhaps over, they
But God is … God!
Late last year Pam was pregnant again. When
she went for her ultrasound, the doctor found
a serious anomaly in the baby. The baby did
not develop any skull. The suggestion of
the entire medical field was simple: "the
baby is not compatible with life; has 0%
chance of survival; does not deserve to live
any longer, and therefore should be terminated/aborted."
Friends and relatives were afraid and concerned
- it will be too much for them to go through
all this pain all over again, they argued.
They hinted that the most sensible thing
to do is to end the pain as soon as possible.
Others held them close to their hearts and
The answer of Ron and Pam was faith. Think
also of the baby, she wrote in a letter she
emailed to many of her friends and relatives.
"This baby has been attached to me ever
since she was conceived. We are attached
together from the very beginning. Taking
her away from me by intentionally aborting
her, sadly and deeply breaks my heart. I
just don't want anybody of us to make that
decision. I want God to be the arbitrator
of that and let Him be the Decision-Maker
for my baby's life….even for our lives. So
please I beg you to allow me to experience
this pregnancy to the fullest, and whenever
it's time for her to go, then so be it. We
know she'll go straight to her place in Heaven
and I'll be happy to know that we'll have
three loving angels guiding us." Isn't
this what life is all about, after all? Going
The pregnancy continued. Fear, joy, apprehension,
worries, delight at the first kicks… The
couple made specific, very meticulous plans
and had special clothes made for this special
baby. Every detail is precious when you have
so little time to cherish a treasure.
Then on Monday, May 1st feast of Saint Joseph,
Angeli Hope Marie was born. She was a tiny
little thing, 5lbs, 9oz. But so wonderful.
They held her close to them. They cried.
They kissed her profusely. They embraced
her tenderly. They dressed her. They even
took her home….
Angeli Hope Marie said good bye to this earth
just over a hundred hours later. She was
born in the morning of Monday and died in
the evening of Friday. Hundred and eight
hours of selflessness and meekness. "She
passed through our lives quickly and quietly
leaving us with a lifetime of memories and
love. We would request for your prayers at
this time as we learn to live with the loss
of our precious child."
What is precious about all this? Perhaps
the words a priest uttered in a similar
can shed light. "I bet you are
why this happened. Why was this life
away before it began, seemingly meaningless?
We never know what the big plan is.
of you with successful children will
my son is a lawyer, my son is a doctor,
son is a professional athlete. Well
and Amy (the parents) can brag that
son is a saint! God's plan for Jesse
son) is so great that he could not
him to be corrupted by one breath on
Jesse died without sin. That by definition
makes him a saint and God has plans
Angeli Hope Marie lived briefly on earth.
She will now live eternally in heaven. A
mother who went through a similar pregnancy,
wrote, "Lucas Adams is the one child
I will never have to worry about. His life
was wonderful. All he ever knew was love.
What a great life! Who could ask for anything
more? He has made a difference in all our
lives. I am closer to God than I have ever
been and rely on Him for everything. My kids
have learned a great lesson in love and faith.
Our parish also has been affected in a positive
way. I do not live my life thinking "What
if". I am proud of what we did but know
that I did not do it. God did it. It was
His strength and courage that brought us
all through. I now have my own personal angel
in heaven who I will meet when I get there.
I can't wait!"
In a website dedicated to the infants with
anencephaly, there is a significant quote
of Vaclav Havel, the first President of the
Czech Republic, a famed writer and dramatist.
It says "Hope is not the expectation
that things will turn out well, but the conviction
that something is worth working for, however
it turns out."
Thank you Ron. Thank you Pam. Thank you Angeli
Hope Marie. For giving us hope.
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